Enough is enough.

(This is not a poem but I just felt like writing it in this way.)

Once upon a time

There was a silly little girl

Who loved her family a lot

She would over-think

And think way way ahead

That one day her parents would die

And then her sisters

Or maybe she will die first

Everyone has to die eventually

No matter who dies first

They will all be separated eventually

Every time she thought of that

She would cry secretly

She hoped that the family can die together

So that they can always be together

(When I was young, I watched 富貴開心鬼. 

I was so envious because the whole family died together and they could go to the other world together.)

Back to the story..

The silly girl finally died

The End.

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It's been many years and my heart never really revive.

In fact, it died more and more thoroughly each time some shit happens. Ha.

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After yet another incident, I think I really have enough.

I don't have any hope for them anymore.

From helpless.. To despair.. To being cold.. And eventually, Oblivious. 

Haha, I'm free now. :)

Came across this today..

Sometimes I asked God

"Why? Why can't I have a loving family?"

Not born with one and unable to create my own because I never find a worthy good guy.

No matter how hard I tried.

And yet others who take everything for granted are blessed with good families and lovers.

Why, God, why?

But nonetheless I'm still grateful.

Because I have Cookie and Fluffy now!

And Mocha! She may have left us physically but she is still in my heart.

Thank you God.

Was chatting with Elise the other day

And she reminded me: We will be 34 this year!

Finally I can have my own place soon!

So looking forward to living ON MY OWN!

My future house shall be a place full of love, peace and positive vibes.

Money, where did you go?

Just got my salary and ahhh... It's gone.

Haha, oh well, most of it.

But the good thing is, I paid my study loanS, ALL my billS and still have enough to (barely) survive until the next payday. 

Praying hard that I don't have anymore unexpected expenses like the past few months!

Can't wait to graduate and finish repaying my study loans! 

I want to start saving that sum of money for my future house every month!

Hang in there! 

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Can't help feeling ashamed that I don't have a sum of significant savings at the age of 33 (34 after my birthday this year.)
I sure wish that someone taught me about the CORRECT concept of money and saving up when I was younger! Lost count of the times I regretted not saving up when I was young and my parents and Cookie were still healthy!

Too late for regrets.. I can only start bucking up NOW!

True Story

Not just on Mondays though! Haha!

摘星怪張偉《吻的太逼真》

Didn't really bother to chase after this China variety show: 蒙面歌王

But this one is really TOO AWESOME!

Listened to the original singer.. Honestly, not as good as 張偉's version.

Why, God?

Just got home happily from my trip and after talking to my mum, I am now in my room.. Crying.

Can someone normal and worthy please love me? Ha.

Another random post

I have this severe sinus problem since forever.

Lately I met a 神医 who improved my condition practically instantly. 

(Not cheap though!) 

Just finished exercising and it suddenly dawned to me:

f I had exercised regularly, watched my diet (less cold water, especially) and practiced correct lifestyle habits (eg not staying up late)..... 

Perhaps my condition would have improved already?

On a side note, it feels so awesome to be exercising!! 

But why do I always stop doing it regularly after knowing how shiok it is??

Hope I can maintain my exercise routine! At least 150 minutes per week please!!

加油! 争气一点啦! Haha!

Cookie's Smile..❤️

Previously Cookie fell sick and she looked tired all the time..

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At the Pet Hospital

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Back at Home

She was discharged but she still wasn't smiling.. 

She was always tired and her body felt so weak.. Like she's gonna fall apart anytime!

The vet at the Pet Hospital had told me that she's not going to live past 18..

Simply because he has never seen any dog live beyond 18 years old.

Seeing how tired and weak she was, I really thought Cookie's days were numbered.. :'(

(Suddenly got a sense of deja vue while I was typing this part.)

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And then.. Miracle happened!

Was.. Was that a SMILE??

(On our way to her 2nd acupuncture session!)

After just the 1st session, Cookie had seemed to be significantly better!

So I was really looking forward to the next session!

At Dr Oh's Clinic

Got to know about Dr Oh through Shuqi!

Check out all the acupuncture needles on her back!

After the 2nd session..

Cookie actually walked all the way to my room to sleep with me!! ❤️

(Something that she hadn't done for a long time since she fell sick!)

She looks so cute here.. My little baby! ❤️

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And then on another day..

Finally saw her happy face again! ❤️

And then on another day.. Christmas eve, to be exact..

SHE SMILED that cute little smile which I love so much. ❤️

Isn't she sweet?? ❤️

Yesterday she could even go swimming! Haha!

❤️❤️❤️

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Unexpectedly I benefited as well, because Dr Oh saw me and offered to treat me.

Having experienced it for myself, I can only say one word: AMAZING.

So I'm feeling quite hopeful that he can help to improve Cookie's health as well!

First Workout for 2016!

Almost didn't happen. LOL.

Well, it looked like it was about to rain..

And even though it hadn't rain yet, it was very cooling!\

Best weather for sleeping!

And my bed felt extra comfy..

And Fluffy looked extra cute until I wanted to keep looking at him..

(Excuses excuses! Haha!)

Was so tempted to skip the session!

But yet, I know I would enjoy it and I would thank myself later!

In my heart:

Haha!

Figured that if I want to go, I need to leave my house by 11.30am.

Which meant that I needed to make my decision SOON.

Just when I thought the Devil is rejoicing..

the Angel suddenly powered up! 

*Laughs*

I didn't know why but I suddenly felt the urge to go!

And I actually just got dressed (anyhow) and left the house.. Still wearing my spectacles!

(Normally I always insist on wearing contact lenses because spectacles kinda get in the way whenever I exercise.)

Was expecting myself to be late.. But surprise! I was right on time!

The previous class ended late so my class started slightly later too. LOL!

Unsurprisingly, I had an awesome time!

So glad that I went in the end!

WOOHOO~~~❤️

(And secretly thankful that I managed to survive the session!

Been a while since I last joined the classes.. Stamina dropped already!)

This describes how I felt right after my class~

Love the filming style.. But I can't help laughing at my flat chest! HAHA!

No one is perfect, you know!

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Thanks to my colleagues, I know how take better care of myself now!

Used to fall sick heavily each time I started exercising.. 

I always thought God is trying to sabotage my fitness plans!

Until my colleagues (especially Jenny!) analysed my situation, explained why it happened and gave me good advice!

My body is 'cold', according to TCM's school of thought.

Hence, after exercising, I would quickly wear my windbreaker to protect myself.

(Even if I'm feeling hot and sweating profusely!)

Apparently when I sweat a lot, it's extra easy for me to catch a cold!

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My current KpopX Instruction.. Alvin! 

(He's normally not as serious as this during class.)

It's really a good deal to have Alvin as instructor because you can learn to dance as well!

His dance moves are so cool and stylo milo! 

(Even if you fail to 偷师, you can still enjoy his 'live' performances.. Haha!)

Wow, I didn't know he teach Zumba as well!

(Yeah, that's how he is during class.. So engaging!)

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Wrote something in Facebook to

But of course, KpopX Fitness is so fun and enjoyable because of

MADDY!!

This is not a sponsored post. Lol!

Seriously I have said this many, many times..

Maddy is really the cutest, funniest and more energetic instructor I've ever seen!

She may look playful, she's also very devoted with her work too!

Click here to check out the revised moves!