Pre-Vacation Post

Gosh, it's already 4am plus and I am still awake!

It's raining now and cute little Ah Zai is sleeping blissful on my bed with a smile.

Going to head for the airport later in the afternoon.

Missing Ah Zai, Fluffy and the children already!

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Was packing my luggage halfway and then I left my room to take something..

When I came back..

Haha, so cute!

He's usually so manja and always like to follow me all the time..

Hope he will be okay during my absence for these few days!

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Actually, whenever I need to travel by air, I would mentally prepare myself for the worst.
Well, I know I'm probably worrying for nothing.
But.. Who knows, right?

Anyway.. Just some random thoughts.

Everything is destined. Everyone's life has to end someday.
I used to think, even if I have to die, I hope to die an honorable death.
But as I grew up, I realized it's not really that important as to how we die, but how we live.

I believe in God and that he has a plan for all of us.
Whatever that happened or will happen, He has a reason for all of that.
Have faith! :)

Anyway, my darling Cookie and Mocha are not around anymore.
If my time is up, I really hope to be able to be reunite with them again.
I miss them so much!

But sometimes I think death is the end.
Which is fine with me too.
I guess it's probably the only way for me to stop thinking too much.

So if someday I have to leave, there's no need to be sad for me.
I'm definitely in a better, happier place.

And I really hope that by then, I have made a good difference to your life or given you some happy memories.

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But of course, as much as I miss Cookie and Mocha..
I can't just leave Fluffy and Ah Zai behind.
And my 2 sponsored kids from Ethiopia!

Still looking forward to getting my own house..
And building a nice home for myself, Fluffy and Ah Zai!
I really hope to be able to fulfill my wishes soon!

So dear God,
Please bless me and my friends so that we may have a safe and enjoyable vacation!
Thank you!

Hello!

It's been a long while since I last blogged.

To be honest, Blogspot's mobile app is not user friendly!

Hence, I am posting my daily updates in Dayre instead.

In case you are interested, here's the url for my Dayre: yibaifen

I posted stuff quite regularly because it's so convenient and user friendly!

Love how I can upload videos directly there as well!

But Blogspot is better (only for the desktop version) because I can have more control over the alignment. 

I can also customize the text and pictures too.

Unfortunately, I haven't been using a laptop much these days so I haven't been blogging as well.

So if you wanna know what I've been up to, just head over to my Dayre bah!

New Changes!

Those who are in my Facebook should be familiar with this:

Quite dull and sad looking, right?

Dear Mr Lee, I still love and respect you (always will).. 

But I guess I've grieved pretty long so it's time for me to move on.

I'm sure you will want me to do so. :)

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Changed to this:

Well, I used back my old photo because I don't have any suitable photos that can fit into the dimensions nicely. 

It fits in pretty well, isn't it?

Cookie may have passed on already but I still want to use our photos together as profile picture.

(But for my Facebook, it's a profile video. Cool eh!)

I miss my daring Cookie so much.

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Well, it's still not very joyous looking but I guess it's still better than the previous version!

Mid Life Crisis..?

   Well, a lot of things have happened but I'm just too lazy to sit down in front of my laptop to blog. 

Can't be helped.. The blogspot phone app is not user-friendly. Heh!

And so my 34th birthday just passed..
Age is never a concern to me because I look forever young. LOL!

(Not bad right? I can still pass off as their sister instead of aunt hor? Keke!)

In fact, I'm so excited to turn 34!
1 more year to be eligible to buy my own flat!
Woohoo!!
(I will definitely scold him if my Mr Right choose to show up after I got my own flat.. LOL.)

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Well, it's an unlucky birthday month, as always.. *shrugs*

This year is no exception even though I totally ignored my birthday (haha!):

- Old laptop died on me.

- New Asus laptop's motherboard also died within a month of purchase.

- Unlucky incidents at work.

- Old man kicked Ah Zai so the latter bit him.. Guess who paid the medical bills?

- Bitten by Ah Zai who had been so well behaved in front of me all the time.

I think there's some more but I didn't bother to keep track.

Used to it. Haha! But oh well, something good came out of some of them as well.

I'll just treat them as blessings in disguise.

Well, let bygones be bygone. (Ah Zai, I still love you ya!)

Anyway just a quick review / reflection of my life so far..

Family / Love

Well, my family.. Still the same. At least not worse?

At least I have accepted, moved on and not expecting anything anymore. :)

Conflicts aside, I will only focus on the nice things that they have done for the family. :)

Can't be helped that they hate me.
I'm sorry that I'm so detestable to them but I don't give a f*** about it anymore.

It's nobody's fault. I've learnt to ignore all the bad stuff.
I just hope they don't feel too annoyed by me.
If they do, too bad lor. It's their choice..

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Single and probably will stay single always.

The only things troubling me about being single are:

1. Guys always assume that I SHOULD accept them 

(without them making much efforts somemore!) 

just because I am still single at this age.

2. Annoying and insensitive people who are plain lucky to find their ideal mates 

keep telling me to get married and / or have kids. 

(It's my life, I WILL DECIDE. Tyvm. Give me some respect please. 

I can probably get your men IF I want so quit teaching me how to get a man.)

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On the positive side..

I'm starting my own family NEXT YEAR! ♥️

Don't get me wrong. Haha!

YES! My family = Me, Fluffy (my rabbit) and Ah Zai (my dog)!

(Cookie and Mocha too! They will always live in my heart.)
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

If things go well, I may be able to get MY OWN HOUSE next year!! ♥️

Going to upside Fluffy's "house" to a super nice and spacious one.

Probably going to get him a beautiful wife to accompany him too!

Actually I'm really, really loving my single life now.

I love kids but I have 4 lovely nieces and nephews.

♥️♥️♥️♥️

 

 

Aww, adorable max! ♥️

And the fact that they are not my kids means that I will still have time for myself.

AS AND WHEN I NEED.

I think it's a good balance. :)

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Career

Resigned my job of 4 years.

Well, I guess everything happens for a reason. 

Or in these case, several reasons.

Many factors add up together and somehow I just knew (suddenly) that it's time to leave.

Many people were surprised because they knew how much I love my job and company.

Even I felt that I should be surprised. I always thought I would work here forever.

Yet I don't feel surprised because I knew this is meant to be.

(Anyway, we may be colleagues for only a few years.. Friendship will last forever!)

Sixth sense, I guess.

Not the first time that I felt the need to do something without knowing why..

And a long time later, I would finally understand why.

I trust The Feeling. ;)

Really grateful for thoughtful and understanding bosses to help me with this decision!
Thank you!

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Been job-hunting (passively) for the past few weeks.

Only got called up for 1 interview and got rejected some more.

Only 2 agencies called me.

Being an ex recruiter, I know I should be pretty sellable candidate.

I guess it's the time where everyone is waiting for their bonus and the

market is really bad right now.

Nonetheless, this situation is still within my calculated risk level

so I'm not worrying yet. Haha!



Have faith!

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Nonetheless, life has been pretty awesome these days! ♥️
(Which probably explains why I haven't been blogging.. Opps!)

I can stay up real late and go to bed in the morning..

When usually I would have to wake up for work! (Cheap thrill.. LOL!)

There were some mornings when it rained and I would feel super

blissful lazing in my bed with Ah Zai by my side and Fluffy in his cage beside my bed.



Shiok max! 好幸福! ♥️

Ah Zai used to bark whenever it's time for me to leave for work.

Lately he looks so happy all the time.. Haha! ♥️

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Sometimes I fetch the kids from school / childcare. Simple bliss indeed!

And at times I would also bring them out or just spend some time with them.

Like going to MacDonalds (omg, again!).. Haha!

Their childhood will pass by so quickly and I feel fortunate to be a part of it. ♥️

Will probably enjoy for a couple of weeks more before I start to look for jobs seriously.

Been looking through job ads diligently though!

Many jobs required a degree at least.. I'm so glad that I had made the

(painful) decision to pursue a degree back then! (Even though I doubted my

decision many times.. LOL.)

Finally left with The Last Module.

Praying hard that I can pass it smoothly and get the darn piece of paper!

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Health

I must thank FHI for guiding me on the route of my healthier journey.

However, I've slacked a lot lately.. By staying up late, waking up late and going to 

MacDonalds so often.

Just let me be lazy for a bit longer please!

I promise I'll try to start living healthily by next month. (Keyword: TRY)

Heehee!

Luckily for me, I am blessed with anti-aging genes.. LOL.

It's effortless for me to stay this way. Not gonna claim credit for my forever-young looks.

But of course, my body and complexion are still deteriorating,

although at a slower rate.. Maybe?

I still need to start being more hardworking.. (Next month start.. Okay? Haha!)

Definitely need to lose a lot of body fats.

Sob sob.. (But next month!)

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Conclusion 

So well, it may seems kinda scary that at the age of 34,

1. I have no house of my own.

2. I don't have much money in my bank accounts.

3. I don't have a job.

4. I don't have a hubby.

5. I don't have kids.

Socially, I may be deemed as a failure.

But at the end of the day, it's MY life.

I decide how I wanna live it.

I set my own KPIs.

And as far as I am concerned, I am successful because:

1. I've changed for the better and I am still trying to improve constantly

2. I pay up my bills on time and I am not in any debts except my study loan which will

be fully paid this December! (Woohoo~~)

3. I've matured a lot which I believe will help me greatly in going back to "my world".

4. I didn't succumb to social pressure and anyhow marry anyone.

5. I have 2 lovely furkids.. Fluffy and Ah Zai!

6. My 4 adorable nieces and nephews love me.

Most importantly, I know what matters to me; I follow my heart and conscience.

I believe that's what really matters.

Which is why, I can sleep so well (too well, in fact!) every night.

I will keep up the good work! Heehee!

♥️♥️♥️

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Someone left the receipt behind..

Whoa, so much money in the bank account!

Hope I can have more than this amount in bank accounts someday!

I could have, but I didn't think of saving money in the past.

Nowadays I'm a lot more thrifty but alas, too many commitments.. 

Study loans, dad's medical bills, my own bills, expenses for my furkids..

And now, I gotta save up for my house!

(As well as renovations, furniture.. Etc.)

I will 加油! 

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Anyway.. Just to reply the the question in my blog title.. 

I guess not. ;)

Belated Birthday Dinner with Animal Buddies

They asked me to decide where to eat so I chose Yoogane!

Just before meeting them..

Had packed my remaining stuff into the trolley bag..
But alas! Too heavy until my trolley bag became spoilt!!

Fortunately, Shuqi came to my rescue by coming over to fetch me! ♥️
(And later she sent me home too! Can't imagine how I gonna go home with a heavy, spoilt trolley bag!)

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At Yoogane..

Our food:

Seafood and Chicken Galbi



Been a long while since I last had this!

Never into the CNY niangao but ever since I first tried the Korean dokboki, I was hooked! But it's pretty filling so I usually start to feel full after eating a few pieces..

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Korean Style Seafood Pancakes

Shuqi picked this dish.. Great choice! Tasted so yummy!

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Japchae

Another dish picked by Shuqi! I always like to eat Korean's version of glass noodles! 

Feels more chewy than the Chinese version. 

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Love all the dishes selected!
I think I will just stick to the same selection when I eat there next time!

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We were chatting about Pokemon Go..
And I was surprised to know how hardcore they were!

Check out Chun Cheung's pokemons!

The perks of working in MBS.. Haha!

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My birthday only feels completed after I've celebrated it with my animal buddies.. 

And my pets, of course!  So fortunate to have them in my life! ♥️  

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Advance Birthday Celebration

Thank you FHI for the advance birthday celebration and birthday cake! ♥️

Finally I have a simple and well executed birthday surprise!! :)

Today I realized that I'm actually pretty contented with what I currently have 

(despite my occasional rants, lol) because when it was time to make my birthday wish, 

I couldn't think of what to wish for.. Because I don't feel that I'm lacking anything. 

(Have excessive fats, maybe. Haha!)

Eventually I opted for good health. (On 2nd thoughts, I should have wish for success in 

slimming down! Haha!)

I may not be the best in any way now but I sure love the current me more than my former self. 

Thank you to all those who love me along with my imperfections and 

all those who ever care for me before.

Shall try to be better person and make more positive contributions to this world in my 

remaining years.. No matter how small my contributions may be. ♥️

Super love this cake! So pretty and yummy! ♥️

Been so busy at work until I didn't even think about my upcoming birthday at all!

Caleb's beautiful house.. I'm so envious!

Looking forward to getting my own house next year!! ♥️

Happy gathering!

Hope we'll continue to have more gatherings in future! ♥️

InfinityChallenge.. The Making of Infinity Company - Employees in Crisis

Watched the movie. Whoa, it was really good! 

I'll be willing to pay to watch it in cinema!

Do watch it too! Highly recommended!

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Really resonates with this part!

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Many times in my life, in my work..

There have been temptations.

I could have get away with it.

No one could have known.

Or many are also doing it.

But I always choose to be true to my heart.

Because I want to be able to sleep well at night.

I may not be the best, the fastest, the most important person on earth..

But I am someone who I can be proud to be. :)

ANIMALS ARE NOT TOYS!

Today I came across this video.

The guy was showing his son how to 'play' with the fish.

He took the poor fish out of the water.

There were laughter.. I don't understand what's so funny.

Everyone knows fishes cannot breathe when they are out of the water.

The poor fish was suffering. Why is that funny to them?

I wish adults can impart the right values to the young ones.

So that they may grow up and protect the animals.

And teach their young ones to do so as well.

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I'm really shocked that such cruel action is done by someone I know.
Not some stranger from another country.
Animal cruelty is so near me now.

And it makes me even more upset that the video had 17 likes.
While a few did comment that the fish was traumatised, they didnt dare to defend the fish firmly.
Probably afraid to hurt his feelings?
Most didn't say anything at all.

I sure hope it's not because they think it is okay to do that to the fish.
It's NOT OKAY.

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While I'm not expecting people to go vegan or go out of their way to save animals.. 

The least we can do is not harm animals that we come across. 

Why make them suffer? For fun?? Is that fun?? 

What's the world becoming.. 

Where is our humanity.. 

ANIMALS ARE NOT OUR TOYS.

"What Kind of Me Do I Wanna Be?"

Every now and then, I would ask myself that.

So.. What kind of Me do I wanna be?

Hmm.. Let me see.. 

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I do miss the old me, in terms of my looks and figure.

(Okay, I'm superficial.. But I'm a Libra so I'm born to appreciate beauty. Heh!)

Recap - Photos taken in 2012:

 

 

Even without makeup, I still look quite cute hor? *Ahems!* Heh!

Hardly post selfies online these days.

Well, I don't think I changed much except I'm fatter now (sob sob)..

Other than that, somehow I feel I am older too?

Photos taken in 2016: 

 

Okay okay, so I know looking older is inevitable since the photos were taken 4 years apart!

(Gosh! How fast time flies!)

But still, I miss the past, cuter version of me!

How can I be cute and youthful again?

During recent years, I actually slack A LOT on maintaining my appearance.

Everyday I go out without makeup, wore my super old spectacles and simply clip my fringe, revealing my super high forehead. Oh, and I always wear my flip flops.

My colleagues commented that I looked so auntie-ish!

Since I came back from my recent Japan trip, I'm happy to say that I've improved a lot.

Haha! 

Hope I can keep up the good work ya! ;)

But.. but.. I've slacked on my weight management routine.

AGAIN.

Urgh! Why is it so hard to slim down and stay slim??

Just bought a slimming gadget.. Hope it helps!

If it works, I will share with you all okay? Heehee!

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Finding back the previous childlike, kind and silly me.

Well, I think I can actually be childlike and kind again.

But probably not be silly again.

My past experiences have made me wiser and stronger.

I do love my current self now.

Everything happens for a reason.

I believe my past experiences happen to toughen me up and help me grow up.

Used to be very upset all the time..

But now, I feel released.

Thank you God.

Used to explore spirituality and meditation, etc.

Have stopped doing that for ages.

Recently, with Cookie's passing.. I desperately wanted to connect with her.

So I shall start exploring spirituality again!

Was chatting with Sharon and she was sharing her experiences with her deceased dog.

I am so jealous!

Wish I can be as spiritually receptive as her too!

(Cookie baby, I miss you so much!

How can I see, hear, smell or feel you again!!

Who can help me.. =\)

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Just to summarize.. 

I wanna be: 

- Pretty and youthful (while I can!)

- Regain my former weight and body fats percentage!

- More spiritual

- More happy

- More kind

Oh! Apart from those mentioned above, I also hope to:

- Chat with others more

- Do some charity work

- Study more (2 more modules to go, yay!!)

Thanks to Cookie, I was invited to join this JRT Facebook group.

From there, I knew some friends and got invited to a few more groups.

I LOVE ANIMAL LOVERS!

It feels like I've finally found people like me! Haha!

Okay, so I am normal after all.

In fact, I am not as passionate as many of them.

Really admire the efforts they put in for animals!

Shrek the Musical @ MBS

Thanks to my brother-in-law, I got to watch this last night!

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Would love to share photos / videos taken by me but alas, no photography is allowed!

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Nonetheless, here's what I love about my experience!

The Friendly Staff

My sister went to collect the booster seats with Leroy while I headed to the theater with Steffi and Stacci.
Along the way, 3 staff offered to guide us to the theatre and they also asked if I need booster seats!
Quite impressed that the staff were so attentive, thoughtful and they took the initiative to assist us!

Upon reaching the theatre, there were staff to guide us to our seats as well!

(I'm so used to finding my own seat until I felt so spoonfed by the amount of assistance I received along the way.. Haha!)

Beautiful Theatre, Comfortable Seats

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Thanks to the lovely environment, we literally sat back and enjoyed the show!

The Musical

Spoiler Alert..? Haha, I try not to reveal too much!

It''s pretty amazing to see the characters coming alive and dancing / singing right before our very eyes.
I may be in my thirties but I guess there's always a little kid within every adult. Especially me, heh!

 <- I probably looked like this during the musical, haha!

Just before the show started, Leroy actually asked me to swap seats with him because he felt that I had a better view!

Eh.. I was just sitting right beside him though.. Haha, faint!

The kids were really captivated and surprisingly, they were so quiet throughout the show..  Except to ask me for water at times! I actually checked on them a few times, thinking they might have dozed off!

(Whoa! Are they really the same kids who keep asking me random questions nonstop whenever we watch movies??)

When we were having a short break, Stacci asked me when's Shrek and Fiona going to get married. Haha! And during Fiona's (unsuccessful) wedding with Lord Farquaad, Steffi pointed to the setting (fake) sun and whispered to me, "Ah Mai, you see! The sun is going down! She's going to turn into ogre!"

Backdrops and Props.. Magic??

It did feel like magic! One moment they were in the swamp.. The next moment they could be in the forest.. Or even in the church or castle! Amazed at how fast those were changed and yet still looked so beautiful and magical! Love how they combined projected moving graphics with real life props to create a more realistic yet fantasy-ish feel!

Super love the castle where Fiona stayed! (Suddenly feeling like a small girl again, reliving my old princessy fantasies!)

The Finale

Not gonna be a spoiler here but do stay in your seats for the finale song!

You won't regret it!!!

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It was a fun night for us adults and the kids indeed!

But I must say, it was also pretty torturous for me..

So many cute characters, so many beautiful backdrops and props..

BUT YET I COULDN'T TAKE PHOTOS / VIDEOS!!

 

WHYyy...

In loving memory of my darling Cookie

Sometimes I really have to believe that life is pre-destined. 

And I should always have faith. 

No matter how lousy things may seemed to me at that point in time, they turn out to be for the better. 

For example, last Saturday I woke up early and left the house early.. 

But yet ridiculously, it took more than half hour for me to wait for the bus and reach AMK interchange. 

(It only takes me around 15 mins to walk over.) 

Was quite annoyed because I would be late for class and eventually I decided to skip it.

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THANK GOD I skipped it. 

Because of that, I was able to see Cookie smiling contentedly and peacefully..

While she's alive for the last time.

I felt truly fortunate.. Thought she was already gone.

But I put my hands on her chest, she was still breathing slightly.

Her body was soft, eyes were glassy and her paws were weak.

I know her time was going to be up.

I whispered in her ears, "I love you forever, baby girl.. Don't be scared, my heart will always be with you."

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Bibi girl,

Thank you for waiting for me to come back from Japan.

You specially came to my room to sleep with me.

And that was our last snuggling session together in bed.

You started feeling sick the next day.

That same night, you were looking uncomfortable.
But when I carried you in my arms, you suddenly turned to me and smile.

Much later, I realized that these were the special memory moments that you specially gave me.

Because you knew you were leaving and you wanted me to know you'll be fine.

And to assure me that you know I love you, and that you love me too.

I don't know why, but your smile tells me all that. 

Because of your smile, I could accept your leaving better.

I know you are not scared and in fact, you seemed to look forward to it.

In fact, I sensed that you were happy and contented.

Thank you for everything, bibi girl.

Grateful to you for staying healthy most of your life until the first scare you gave us when you were 15.

They asked us to put you to sleep. They said you won't ever recover.

But time and again, you created miracles despite all odds.

Not only did you live, you lived happily for 3 more years.

Even towards the end, you gave me a chance to say goodbye and tried to make sure I'll be fine.

You will always be my most beloved girl.

I will always remember that the bravest, cutest and most amazing JRT loves me with all her heart.

Fun at Pororo Park Singapore!

My sis and bro-in-law needed my help to watch over the kids so I got the chance to tag along with them yesterday.. 

..to PORORO PARK SINGAPORE! 

Woohoo!

(I'm still a kid at heart. Kekeke!)

Basically the highlights are all in this video.. So just watch lah!

Definitely a fun place to bring your kids along!

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Warning for Parents (or Aunts / Uncles / Ah Gong / Ah Ma... Etc)

1. Your kid(s) will run all over the place.. So you will run all over the place too!

Hahaha!

2. You will get mini heart attacks because you will 'lost' them at times.

Fortunately they always reappear out of nowhere!

3. You will lose your voice.

Especially when it's time to go home.. Because they simply "cannot" hear you!

They love the place too much!

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But seriously though, parents should really make their kids rest for a while after eating.

Not advisable to let them resume playing immediately after their meal! 

Ideally, don't let the kids eat too much.

Reason being..

When we were there, I heard there a kid vomited.

Stacci and Leroy also vomited a bit because they spun too much at one of the stations.

But.. After they finished vomiting, THEY STILL WANTED TO PLAY.

Oh my gosh.. T.T

Ended up watching them spin and spin for at least another half an hour until even I felt dizzy too. @.@

But they looked so happy until I didn't have the heart to make them go home.

The journey home in the cab was so unusually peaceful and quiet.

All of them fell asleep once they boarded the cab. Hahaha!

Fighting!

When I fall down..

Get up!

When I keep falling down.. 

Go ahead and cry if I am sad and tired.

After that, wipe my tears and keep going!

Because

熹妃传.. The Game

Met up with Elaine and Lynn the other day and they introduced me to this game.. 熹妃传!

Wanted to blog about this game but was too busy (same old excuse as always.. opps!).

Finally gonna blog NOW and by now, my rank has reached 贵人 and my level is 50 already!

Love how the imperial edict appears whenever I am promoted!

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Lynn sent us a screenshot.. Her character is 皇贵妃 already!

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Introducing my "husband" in the game.. Haha!

Lynn told me that this game is based on a novel so I went to download it.

Boy, super long! Still reading it.. Probably like 1/3 through only??

Feels a bit like a combination of 武媚娘 and 甄嬛传 though!

The story line in the game is slightly different though.

Some of the names are different too. For example, the emperor's name.

Also, this scene (referring to the screenshot above) is taken from the novel.

In the novel, 凌若 met 康熙 and the latter liked her because she resembles someone special to him.

To cut the story short, some jealous woman gave her away to 康熙's son (胤禛) because she knew that she is threat to her position. Tsk tsk.

But in this game, 康熙 and 胤禛 are merged into 慕凌辰..

Oh well.

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Anyway!

Here's another game bf of mine. Haha!

Created another male character because Lynn said being married (in the game) has some benefits.

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Level and closeness are not high enough so in the meantime..
We can only be friends. Haha!

..And greet / visit each other at times..

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That awkward moment when my 2 characters met each other in a battle.. Haha!

..Or met when we go fishing!

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Speaking of which, other than those mini games mentioned previously, there are also..

Dressing Up

They will give you a scenario and asked you to dress up the character accordingly.

Planting Crops

Whatever you grow here can be cooked in another game.

Cooking

Opps, not enough ingredients to cook!

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That's all for now!

I'm still in the midst of exploring so I can't share much either.

Just download it and explore if you are curious!

It's free anyway.. Heehee!

So far I think this game is pretty user friendly and interesting!

Considering that it is FREE, I say it's really great!

Even if you don't spend real money to make in-game purchase, you can still play.

AWESOME.

But of course if you buy the credits, you can get better followers (随从) which will increase your combat abilities lah!